Canadian size 14-16
The past few months have been really hard for me. I was under a lot of stress for various reasons such as medical issues and working too frequently, and that made me fall back into a place of self loathing. Working to love myself has always been a struggle for me, so when I was under too much stress I stopped being able to appreciate myself, and instead I was constantly picking myself apart. “This part of you is too fat, that part of you jiggles too much when you walk, your boobs shouldn’t look that way”. That was my daily put down routine.
This morning was no different. I woke up hating the fact that none of my clothes fit me the way I wanted them too, and that once again my low confidence was pushing me into the same outfit as I wear every day: jeans and a baggy sweater… perfect to hide everything.
While I was out today, I ended up purchasing a pair of thigh high socks I’ve been wanting for years. It was really exciting to finally own them, so as soon as I got home I yanked them on, and to my horror, I saw that they were too tight around my thighs and therefore made my skin ooze out of the top like a deflated muffin.
At this point I was faced with two options: I could cry about it and spend the rest of my night hating my body, OR I could embrace my thunder thighs and take another crack at body acceptance. As you can see from the picture, I chose the later.
I don’t know if this mind set will stick around for long, or if my stress will cause my confidence to suffer again, but for tonight I am feeling amazing and that is a huge accomplishment in itself.
I haven’t submitted to this blog in a really long time, and that’s one of the things I’d like to do more often. This place is a positive reminder that there’s an entire community of people who will accept me for my size, and embrace my choices to dress however I want, EVEN if it makes me loo like a “deflated muffin”.
All of you chubby bunnies are incredibly inspiring, and I’d love to chat with any of you that are interested in dropping me a message: http://queer-trash.tumblr.com/
Stay lovely. xoxo
How Breasts Can Look
A little while back, I made a post about the Reality of Nude Photos, and the public reaction that really surprised me in response was that it seemed like a lot of people had never actually seen a female body in different positions like that before. Lots of people didn’t believe that both of the images in that post were really me, because my breasts looked so different in the two pictures.
And that really stuck with me. Not any kind of frustration at the disbelief I received, but a genuinely eye-opening realization that people didn’t know what breasts can look like when they’re just flopped around in a picture or looked at from a different side.
I certainly don’t have the same breasts as every other woman out there, so this is in no way meant to represent all of womankind. Not by a long shot. Breasts come in all shapes and sizes and each woman is unique in the way that they will stretch, sag, move, bounce, and so on. Women have different nipples, different sized areolae, and very differently shaped breasts.
These are my breasts. 12 photos of them just hanging out and doing their thing. Every woman in the world could make this photo chart and it would be a little bit different each time. And in my opinion, that is one of the most wonderful and amazing things about the human body.
this makes me so happy